Thursday, January 1, 2015

2015 - New Beginnings!

I have this weird thing - I refuse to make "resolutions."  I've been this way since I was a teen.  Boiled down to the essentials, when I make a resolution for myself I immediately equate it to failure.  There is something in my psyche that says if I need to make a resolution this insinuates I've failed at something.  Is this not, at least in part, true?  I suppose, but there is something deep seated in my brain that places a very negative connotation on resolutions.  Thus, I have no resolutions for the 2015.  However, I do have goals.  Yes, go ahead and chuckle about that a moment.  "This guy makes no resolutions but sets goals?  What's the difference?"  Maybe simple semantics, I don't care personally.  I just know it isn't a resolution.  LOL 

2015 will bring many new beginnings for me.  I will hopefully be selling a home and moving to a new town.  In that new town is a new position in the same industry.  It will be a leadership position for which I've worked very hard for, to raise myself to that level, since about 1998.  It is true personal and professional achievement and I am deeply excited at the chance to lead.  There will be many other new beginnings as well but I shall not go into them presently.  

However, this is a blog about running, no?  So, do I have any running related beginnings for 2015 in the works?  Well, in a manner, yes.  Looking back I am going to call 2014 a rest year.  I did cover roughly 250 miles which is not shabby considering how lazy I felt.  My runner's heart beat strong throughout the year.  Never a day went by that I didn't think about running, sometimes deeply frustrated at the fact I wasn't more active.  At the same time, there was still something, underlying, that was demotivating.  Stress, an unsettled work schedule, perhaps simply "life."  2015's primary goal is just finding my love of running once again.

I must start from the ground up.  I must re-establish my foundation.  I am at that point again.  Simply stated, my body and mind are ready to start all over again.  This is not a discouragement.  This is just the place I needed to be to redefine myself as a runner.  This is the best place to be.